Wow..Its Been a While

Here I am again, still in the same place I was last time I posted which was in 2010! I still haven't lost weight, in fact, I've probably gained 20 lbs! My weight is a roller coaster, I tend to lose weight in the Spring and Summer and gain during the Fall and Winter. I don't want to ride that roller coaster anymore..I want to get active and stay active! I have been reading some motivational blogs to get inspired and thought maybe if I start a blog and take it seriously, then I could hold myself accountable! I love running, and when I do it I feel AMAZING, but for some reason I stop loving it after 3 days...I don't know why that is! I sign up for half marathons and the first one I did I took seriously and trained my butt off for it (like really, my butt went away), then every one after that I kinda just do it more for fun and walk and talk with someone, I don't want to do that anymore, so I'm starting over TODAY! I started out today with 2 miles and it took  me exactly 30 minutes I'm going to keep doing 30 minutes on the treadmill every morning until I can do 3 miles in 30! I have ALWAYS been a slow runner, I ALWAYS stop and walk before I need to. I want to be fast, I want to push myself, and I want to stay healthy!  The thing about running is I never had to watch what I ate, because A) I naturally ate healthier to fuel my body, B) I burned so many calories I could pretty much eat what I wanted. I want to get back to that!

 This is me after the Oklahoma City Bombing Memorial Half Marathon 2010. Time 2:38

3 Weeks later at the Ogden Half Marathon 2010 Time 2:54

See what I'm saying! I took my first race seriously, and haven't got better than 2:54 since, in fact, I just looked and I have actually gotten slower every time..I'm NOT saying 2:38 is FAST by any means..but for me it is. 

Layton Half Marathon 2011 Time 2:54

After finishing the Bear Lake Half Marathon 2012. Time 2:56

When I stopped taking running seriously, I stopped losing weight. 

So now my new running journey begins...

Why I'm starting this blog...

Today, I decided to start a blog, every magazing I read or advice I get says I need to start a journal, tell my story, and write down what I eat and keep a daily log, why not do it online seems how I'm always on my computer anyways. I'm not going to write every single thing I eat that would be boring! But I wanna tell you what works for me and what doesn't.

So, my whole life until I was about 21 I was skin and bones, I ate WHATEVER I wanted WHENEVER I wanted! Everyone was always telling me I need to put meat on my bones, or asking me how I stay SO skinny and I was one of those girls who said "I just eat whatever I want!". Slowly but surely all that stuff I wanted, has caught up to me, between getting married, moving into a house, starting a new job, my parents divorce, eating out, and the occassional glass of wine or 2 or 3, I am now at my highest weight ever. However I really don't want this blog to be about losing weight. I really want it to be more about, changing my lifestyle and my attitude towards life, because as my wieght was going up, my confidence in myself and others has taken a dive.

Last year, my sister in law talked me into signing up for a half marathon in Oklahoma, I did it, I loved every minute of training, I ate healthy, I didn't drink pop or alcohol, I had energy, I was nice and happy all the time, I loved the way I felt after a good long run, I loved the way I looked, I felt GREAT! I ran the Oklahoma City half marathon in 2:30 and ran the whole 13.1 without stopping, I don't know what happened, but I quit running after that, I had another half marathon in Ogden 3 weeks later that took me 3 hours to finish I was pretty sick during the run because I had quit eating healthy and taking care of myself, after that I was done, the thought of running made me want to puke. I haven't felt that good since before the OKC half and I look back now and wonder why I quit??

I'm a very happy go lucky type of person, but at the same time I am very negative, controlling, and dramatic, so I am ready to change that as well, its time to have an attitude of gratitude and start looking on the bright side of things! I want to tell you 10 things I am grateful for right this minute!

1. My job, its a job and its a good one, what more can I say.
2. My husband, he puts up with me, works his butt off to provide us a house and all the other things we want and need.
3. My grandparents, without them and their example to me and my siblings I don't think any of us would be where we are today! We are very blessed to have such amazing grandparents.
4. My parents, for the same reason I am thankful for my grandparents.
5. My Brothers and Sisters, they have always taken care of me and protected me, that includes their spouses who have been around most my life and dealt with me being obnoxious.
6. Tysons parents and siblings, they are so nice, they welcomed me into the family like I was one of their own.
7. My friends, always there for me no matter what
8. My house, I love my house! I am so lucky to have a warm comfy home to come to every night.
9. Tayson, making every other weekend of my life entertaining, and making me want more kids I can keep full time:)
10. My Kitty, i love my cat, he makes me smile every single day no matter what!

Well, well, well, I'm already feeling better:)